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2:33pm: so fucking furious at being forced from my HOME. at burningman i learned to cry freely and i have been using that skill a lot. goddammit! can i just rant for a moment? my fucking landlord was an ass who took on three apt complexes and over 1.5 million in debt and RAN THEM INTO THE FUCKING GROUND within three years.what the HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL. what the fucking hell? whywhywhywhywhy did any bank ever give that guy money or responsiblilty over people's lives. He was just an asshole who thought he was gonna make a quick buck, get a free lunch all that. now at least nine people that i know of have to move. now the buildings are going to stand untended and rotting. Now i have to move from my beautiful little home, which should be filled with squatters by next week. i am just so mad.
i move tomorrow. i am so sad.

12:52pm: well, hello!

okay so alot has gone down. that job i took right before burningman..quit it. i didn't like it. so there. am on the verge of signing on for five years to a new project....five years is a long time yes. but. In This Economy. also i could use the signing bonus to pay off my student loans for once and all. So. Until all the paperwork goes thru, i am living off my retirement from AZ state. which is a nice break especially becasue it gives me time to deal with:
The Foreclosure. My landlord blew it. So i have to be out by feb 20th. which is sad but eh. so much packing, am moving to downtown phx. goodbye tempe. love you but i'm not in love with you anymore. you've changed and so have i.
The Long-Distance Relationship. not that tuscon is very far, but. gah, he's hot.and smart. and also yeaterday my tub was backed up and he unclogged it. not a metaphor. i like it when guys are handy. dang he's fine. he said to me "i'm glad we met. we are going to propell each other to great heights." like,golly! did i mentin how fine he is? ass like a perfect peach and such sexy eyes. an engineer and musician. we read poetry over the phone to each other "sometimes the sky is too bright, or there are too many clouds or birds." dylan thomas is his favorite poet. he has a favorite poet. he goes home today. 48 hours is a long time, but not long enough.
well, i guess mainly that's that.

8:08pm: oh hey hi. hi and all.

oh gosh, i dunno, a lot of stuff. jammie jam was cool. also tons of other stuff. like decompression in flagstaff, a cool hallooween at the lost leaf. lots of community commitment, like cleaning the firehouse stuff and stuff. anyway, right now i'm in portland visiting tonya. which is why i'm making an entry. i stopped posting cause i felt i needed to get away from my own scrutiny..a burning man revelation..but it's nice to have a record of my trip. so:
oh wait, first i have had valley fever since the begining of novemeber. too much exposure of desert soils. Been pretty sick, dropped my weight into the 1-teens, no good.
weds before thanskgiving: left for portland with vera...t's mom at 4:00 am. Made it to salt lake. thursday..thanskgivning: vera visited with her sick brother in salt lake, I stayed behind in the motel watching 'bad girls club' ...was a great day, actually.
friday..onto oregon..lots of mormon and family history finally to t's at six pm
saturday: hanging at t's helping with holiday organization, visit with kathy, visit with chad
sunday: ummm, golly i forget, more organization...umm visit with chad and went to scraps
monday: open mic at bar XV, met up with nitya, saw beacon met nice portlander
tuesday: field trip to the mormon cannery. was totally odd and neato. Canned some dried apples. they will last for thirty years!!!\
weds: TV with chad. Made rag rugs with mandy.
thursday: organization and rest
friday: my birthday! went to escadada to see nat. met her man and brother in law. bought a ton of books. Wentto dinner with t and the family to spagetti co. then barhopping with chad and t. XV and barretti (?) then to silverado for strippers..nice! one of them thanked me afterwards..dunno why, i didn't tip him that great. funny.
tonight: english beat is playing and micheal t chad and i are going to see them
sunday: crafternoon with mandy sandy kathy and chad
monday 4:00 am...vera and i leave for home.
home by weds, prolly.
kay, that's all

7:51pm: ahhh, what can i say? burning man was super good, the new job is super good, I am super good, but i have no compy time so gotta go.

11:30am: the job is over!!!!!!
whoohooohooohooohoooo!!~!!!!!
Onto burning man!!!!!!!

love ya'll see you in a couple of weeks!

11:03am: well, hell, guess i'll do posties.

so very lowkey here at work. still no contact with the bosses, except for PI2 on tuesday. He called to tell me to open some lines of credit and buy some stuff. i was like "NO, i can't open credit, I AM LEAVING IN THREE DAYS!" duh! plus, this was something that should have been taken care of ummmm, NOT three days before classes start. They are totally unprepared for the new semester, and i just don't care! well, i do feel a little bad for the students, but there is nothing i could do about that even when i was working my ass off.

anyway, onto burningman!!! in less than 60 hours, i will be on the road,yea! i have been shopping several times this week and i think i have most of my stuff. I went grocery shopping at midnight on tues with the gang, it was pretty fun. I still need to buy a headlamp and a camelpak for water. but i kinda don't want a camelpak because they just don't seem clean to me. so, hmmm. i dunno yet.
hangin out with thea tonight. she is taking care of the little dog while i am gone. so that's a good girl. she is doing good in her new job. but i do miss her alot.
my co-workers are buying me lunch today. yea. they are nice.actually many other people have come in to say goodbye and wish me well. so my work was recognized and likes. that's awesome.
mmmmm, i'm hungry. snackies!

2:40pm: aggghhhhhhhhh
time is dragging.

haven't spoken a word to either of my bosses since i put in my notice last tuesday.

the lab walls are closing in on me!!!
guess i'll go huff the methonal.

9:56am: hmmph...one hour down, thirty nine left to go. i am the serial killer of time.

well, last week i took my personal days on thurs and friday since i can't take them with me. so that was nice, but today my lab is a box which i am trapped in. umm, i'm gonna open the window blinds. okay that helped a little.
well, ya know , just waiting. um, friday at the firehouse was pretty super good. homage to KP and paul was awesome, then the performance art was also damn cool. up in miami micjeal has been showing alot of performance art on video, so i was prepared and just loved it.
on sat to miami with micheal and ken. got the place ready for the jamie jam since i won't have much time after i get back from burning man.
got really pissed at a person who i had been trying to build a freindship with. she has lots of issues but i am pretty nonjudgemental about most of it. well, on friday she was supposed to give me a ride to firehouse, but was very late. then when she called she said "oh yeah, i'll all over the place becuase i just did three lines of meth. only don't tell my boyfriend" (who is also a frind of mine) ugh! meth? ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. PLUS, MAINLY...do NOT ask me to lie about your drug use to your loved ones! horrible,horrible. well, her actions have already had consequences for her, which is like DUH, people don't like meth or being around someone who is on it!! let's see 18 hr car ride with a speed freak? yeah, NO! anyway it just really pissed me off and we won't be friends. i mean COME ON.
anyway yesterday i did a bunch of laundry and will be all ready to leave for buring man on saturday.
O, Time, I Implore You, Pass Quickly, Please!!

10:44am: aw lawdy

so bored. on lockdown...campus is testing emergency system that failed spectacularly during the sniper scares of last year.Oh! how funny, as i was typing this the all clear came over. it says "please resume all normal activities."
ummm, okay. done and done.
anyway, i am super bored, just waiting for this chapter of my life to be over. PI2 is back in town and was happy to hear about my resignation. yeah, well, i'm happy too. i had thought that the PI's might try to overwork me in my last days, but instead it seems like every one is happy to leave each other alone. whoohoo, except i am bored.
yeah, there's no midlle ground for me, seems like. either things are high energy or boredom.
anyway, counting the days, the hours the minutes. I have been here today since the dawn of time, and yet it's not even 11 yet.ugh.
also just found out i don't get paid till friday this week, i thought it was thursday. sucky but not a big deal, i just wanted to start my shopping on thurs. have to get an air mattress and foam pad so's i can have a comfy bed. I have a matress i could use but it's not especially comfy, and i need comfy. umm, what else? oh, i need lanterns and heat packs. also a couple of hats and stuff like that.
still not even 11 yet.
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, bored.

1:54pm: IT IS DONE!

so, the rest of this day and seven more...about sixty four hours...ticktickticktickticktickticktickticktickticktick

twelve days til burning man.

dinner with thea tonight.

lalaalalalalaalalalalalalalaaaaaaa

1:32pm: big thanks to everyone on the congrats about the new job! i am sooo excited!!!!
altho just found out that i'm only getting part of my pay for burning man, some of it was vacation pay (which i keep) but like 12 hours were going to be personal time, which i don't get paid for. also no labor day pay. but i don't care!!
i put in my notice with HR today, but it didn't go thru yet becasue all three of the bosses..any of whom could sign...are MIA. I was supposed to meet with PI2 today so we could go over what i did while he was gone and i was gonna present him with my letter then, but he never showed. word around here is that he's planning to stay on vacation till next week....he never intended to make our meeting...okay that's one of the reasons it's so easy to walk away. oh well karma's gonna get him since he'll only have a week with me to wrap things up before i go. Also, he gets to learn by email ON HIS VACATION that i am quitting. this makes me happy. anyway, the big boss is also not around today, if she doesn't show tomorrow i will have to go to the dean or something to get it all okay'ed. whatever.
it was a good weekend. olympics on friday, miami on sat home on sun...just chill. really nice.
also formally accepted the new job. yea! five dollars an hour more?yes please!

1:54pm: holy cats...i gots me a new job!!!!
a job that rocks!!!!
more money, less work, free tution for ASU, a boss that has his shit together!!!!
whoohoooooooo!
wow, so out of the blue. awesome!!!
so, two more weeks at the suck ass job (as i will now refer to it as) then burning man, then the new job starts!
whoohoooooooo!
i have meeting with PI2 on monday and i know he's planning on some asshole shit. It will be so nice to say "suck it bitch!" well, maybe i will be nicer. MAYBE NOT!!!!
also, i got the day off at the suckass job today because of a water main break. rockin!!!!!

11:36am: suddenly i have a job interview tomorrow! actaully it is more like a job negotation meeting, the job is mine if i want it.
my hair is blue! well, some of it.
the job is similar to the one i have now, which...hmm..i really want to get out of education. But, they have a flow-cytometer. which is dang cool. but no microarray set-up. which is my true love.
plus still waiting to hear on the microarray job, but not expecting to know anything about it for another month at least.
this offer is from the people i worked with at the teacher seminars. they want me. they want me BAD. and they need me by aug15. holy cats.
my hair is blue! all of my good pants are dirty! tonight will be a wash-a-thon.
just $5 more an hour and i'll be all thiers.

10:50am: dang, so much to say so little time. I am reading friends posts so i am caught up on ya'll but i guess it's time to catch up.
anyway, last week was total work, my bosses are gone and my projects are rocking..it's really good. i actually really LIKE to work when i am not constanly stressed. so everything is going well.
anyway, last weekend i went to miami and decided to throw a party...the miami jammie jam. it is the second weekend in sept. So i designed a flyer and took it to first friday and invited a bunch of people..it's gonna be cool. The over to mario's for dinner, rode with matt. then YIPPIEE! found out the buring man trip is back on! yea! so I am going and i am sooo pleased. lots to do to get it planned but whatver, it's still three weeks away and i can deal with that. Then matt's party on sat. List: matt frip jill deon, amanda, genivieve, paul, mecca phil, jack, ernesto anna kp, mike.
and i gota go.

3:35pm: holy cats super busy
right now matt is filming a commerical in my lab. so i have a minute.
um, okay, went to firehouse friday, wait, gotta go back

very good week in the lab last week, got some shit done, finally. then friday firehouse, then dinner at eric's with chris and tood, then back to firehouse for cleo's b-day.
then miami for the weekend,
then, dang i have to go. super busy.super.

4:18pm: well, the arrays have been verified and the printer calibrated.
now i am hanging out at the firehouse.

1:22pm: quick quick!!

is anyone or does anyone know of someone who is driving to san diego from AZ for the comic con who could take an extra rider?
please please please!!!!!
i wanna go

2:42pm: also i dyed the underside of my hair blue. but it is a subtle blue.

oh oh and i writted this poem:

the best room in the burned down house
that's where the bed was
i bet those were blankets
i heard they were sleeping
melted stuff looks real creepy
dang this place is cool
let's come back again


ummmmmmmmm.....tuesday? what happens on tuesday?

oh yeah, i almost forgot, donald checked himself into a treatment center and has been there over a week.
oh and my phone broke. i got it fixed tho.

1:57pm: oh gosh, i'm way behind.
kay,
um let's seeeee,

weekend before last, went to miami with the 23's, the half fool's and meccas' bro and sis...good kids. Not alot of work, none really, but lots of hiking aound town in the rain, which was super nice. Also, there is a church there with the COOLEST stained glass windows, they are fairly new(within the past ten years) and have the oddest style...they remind me of prison tatoos..but done in really good stained glass.
um.
last week no biggies, except thea and i went to see mama mia on thursday, which was fun and cute and a good mom-daughter movie to see. we went to the tempe marketplace, pretty much my first time there, is a strange place. VAST.
um.
friday was phil's bday party: phil, mecca, paul, jill,frip, chris, stan, mcmg..hey he's supposed to call me! anyway.
house keeping and boring stuff at home over the weekend.
and now today is today.
tonya (yes,we still talk on the phone almost everyday for like a half hour) is worried about the collapse of the economy. If the stores stopping taking credit cards, i am to immedialty get myself and thea to portland to hunker down and weather out the new depression...the even better depression! A little bit i am looking forward to it because i am bored right now.
Also, sadly, i am not going to burning man this year. there is not a cohesive group to travel with, i would have to go on a VERY tight budget and also i need to get a new job. I have one in mind. it should be good. anyway, not going sucks. but it is for the best and i am opeing a new account with the dough back from my ticket to go next year for sure.
my job is okay right now because my bosses are out of town and there are no students and i am finally getting work done on some of my projects that had had to wait. which is nice. Concertrating on microarray, as i am applying to a microarray company in town and want to be skilled.
ya know, i guess that's it.
except i think i may have asperger's. And i've been sending alot of overseas emails. okay, that's all.

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10:40pm: relaxing in tuscon. it is much cooler here and the air is clear and everything is nice.
people of phoenix, i implore you! flee the city! you will be glad you did

9:52am: hmmmm, should i stay or should i go now?

so, this weekend i have planned:
thursday- hang my piece at the firehouse for the "i hate phx' show
friday- opening for the show, then after party at mario's, prolly stay the night in phx
sat/sun: miami for workies

BUT THEN,
i got a voicemail from chris inviting me to tucson for a party friday night, i would have to leave thursday to catch the greyhound and then stay the weekend, come home right to work on monday. Dang, i am torn.
i kinda need to get away. or maybe i really need to get away. Still, it is the opening of the show. also i try to commit every third weekend to miami. but in tucson...well, you know i love tucson. plus my gay daddy-boys adore me and pamper me and feed me delacaies and good liquor and take me to parties where i can really dress up and feel pretty. Also, the chadwick house has good air, whereas the firehouse gets kinda hot. as does miami. when it is only 100 or so, whatever but once it gets over 110, it's kinda torurous.

umumumummmmmmummmmm

hmmm.

i am depressed. Last night i didn't have any food in the house, but at like seven i decided to go to the store to get something. Then on the way to the store the bus for downtown tempe came by so i got on and walked around mill for an hour or so, just wandering, didn't want to be home alone. i did stop by the store on the way home tho.

i think tucson is a good idea. it sucks that i will be blowing off the firehouse and miami and everyone, but i will still hang my piece in the show and i really really really need to be taken care of right now. I can't relax. This morning i woke up at 5:30 and couldn't get back to sleep. In tucson, i can sit by the koi pond and watch the fish if i wake up early. also, i can lay out in the backyard and even out my tan. also, outdoor shower...pure luxury.

i love my friends.

2:00pm: oh before i forget, last week on one day my horoscope was right on target IF i replaced the word 'romance' with 'fistfights'

it would have read something like this:

Avoid fistfights at work today. Even tho all the signals might be there, any action you take now could affect your career! Leave fistfights for another time, you'll be glad you did.

believe me, by day five, i was giggling hysterically thinking about that. yeah, it was stressful.

1:26pm: alright! whoohoo seimnars are over!!!

we did two sections, a morning begginner's and an afternoon advanced. both were four hours a day five days.

in beginners we taught:crude DNA extractions, gel electrophoresis, heatshock transformations, plasmid preps, restriction digest...also a lot of background stuff.
in advanced: genomic DNA extractions, PCR on ribosomal DNA, DNA sequencing, gel electrophoresis, gel extractions, heat shock transformation, competent cell prep, plasmid prep, TOPO vector cloning, DNA quantatation,transformation efficency, using BLAST to read sequences.

it was hectic and strwessful all week. I ate yucky crap, but at least it sustained life. The seminars got good reviews. the bosses said thank you...whoa a first!

anyway, cleaning up the lab today.
this week is the i hate phoenix show, so i am doing my projects in my free time.
ummmmmmmmmmm, golly gee. last week was a lot of work. not to brag, but damn, i rocked it. am looking at new jobs tho. once was enuff!

2:22pm: fucking seminars are over and i rocked it.
i miss ya'll and will catch up with your journals on tuesday...oh hell yeah, i'm taking monday off.